bythewaves | IC Inbox [Eachdraidh]

He does - perhaps he will learn differently in time.

I did not mean it on this occasion, little niece - I swear. I promised all of you I would not make such a wish again, and I swear to you no matter how dearly I have wished to, I have not spoken the words. That it happened again... I do not know if it might again. Will has no experience of this either - this has never been the case, so far as he knows.

Some part of you must have if that was the result. Look at yourself now, you are worse for this than you would otherwise have been. You have gained nothing from it, then or not. You avoided your pain rather than overcome it.

You are stronger than that, so much stronger. There are those who are not so strong as you who had no such option and still found their way back to the light. As you could.

You have seen and faced things that no other could have and you lived. And you have seen such wondrous things that can never been seen again, things that should not be forgotten. You seem to dwell on all the horrid things now rather than the good.

[She pauses.] You are stronger than I ever was, or ever could be. I found my way back to the light without losing a part of myself, you can as well.

Am I? [ a small broken smile ] I do not feel so, little niece. It is easier to see the grief than it is the wonder, these days.

Perhaps I did wish it - I grow so weary of the way the curse dogs my every step. Even in a different world it follow us. But I did not mean to, and I am sorry - I know it grieves you, and I would not have willingly done it again.

[Firmly:] You are, I know that you are. You only feel this way now because you felt nothing these past days and now you feel it all again.

We are your family, you should let us help you find the wonder in the world again. Curse or no, I will not abandon my family, I will not leave you to your own.

If you must, ask your queen for relief. Or I will ask mine.

[ all his emotions are back, aye - including his rage at the Queens - and that suggestion draws a snarl ]

And put myself in debt to them who brought us here and did not stop either my brother or Clarisse? No!

[ but again and again, the fire gutters out, with nothing to sustain it ] Not for this. I do not trust them, Celebrian.

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[She flinches but it's almost barely noticeable. She expected that reaction from him. She expected it and had braced herself for it.]

Have I ever claimed to trust them myself? No, I do not trust them. Queen Solais has been generous but she has never once given me real reason to trust in her.

[That's hardly important.]

But it would not be a debt owed to them but one they would owe you. Have they not taken much from us already and given little in turn?

Aye [ A dark scowl - Solais, especially, he feels has much to answer for - If she cared at all for them, she ought to have acted ]

[ A sigh and he shakes his head ]

They have taken much, and seem inclined to take more. Do not worry for me, little niece - I will... I will find a way to manage. I suspect the more we meddle the worse it will be, in any case.

[Celebrían would make no effort to defend Solais.]

I will always worry for you, uncle. Just as I think mother would and Elrond would were he still here. [Her hand moves to the pendant.] Then we need not meddle. They offer us gifts, boons, in return for certain deeds performed.

It would not be difficult to ask such when next something simple arises. As the ainsels did.

[ I still do not understand why you would he does not say, for he understands that family is not... always unbiased in such matters ]

As kind-hearted as ever. Thank you for the offer, little niece - only do not put yourself in debt for me eh? I will manage.

I will not but do not think that, should the opportunity arise, I will waste it.

[Definitely biased, this one.]

Only if you cannot use it for something better suited to yourself. [ firm ] I will manage, Celebrian. And... I will not willingly take anything from the hand of one whose inaction in large part brought about this war and my brother's death.

Even when it would be more to your advantage than to hers?

[ A considering pause and he shrugs a little ] From Morla, I might take such, if I could see it so. But not ever from Solais.

[ Hi, guess who we lay the biggest portion of the blame on ]

[She can tell.]

I trust neither the seelie or unseelie monarchs uncle, should I ask, please do not deny what I offer. Whether it come initially from Solais, it would be my gift for you.

[ He tips his head in a bow to her, a quiet little smile in his eyes ]

And who am I, to refuse Galadriel's fair daughter? If it comes from your hand, little niece, I will not refuse it. But do not put yourself in debt for me.

You would have a very upset niece. [She sighs softly, relaxing.] I will not. When I ask for it, it will because they owe something to me.

[ a quiet nod and he smiles again for her ]

You are far too kind to me Celebrian. Thank you.

I have only ever been as kind to others and they had shown they deserve.

Hm, perhaps. There are many who would argue otherwise, in regards to me, little niece.

[ But he won't, since he's already established she's as stubborn as her mother ]

I do not care what they might say. You have earned my love and kindness.

[Stubborn as both her parents.]

[ the smile she gets is a little more solid, a little more real ]

You truly are a good match for him, Celebrian, a heart as wide as the ocean.

I am glad that you think so, uncle. For a long time, I did not think I was worthy of his affections.

[You know, during those two thousand years where he said nothing.]

[ an amused huff ] I suspect he might say the same. You are a credit to your parents, little niece. If there is one thing I might be grateful for, it is this chance to know you.

Perhaps he might although I would think much of his reason may lie in the fact that many find my parents frightening. [No idea where they got that idea.]

I am glad I have had this chance, too.

Hm. Well I cannot speak of your father, but I imagine anyone who could keep up with Artanis would be fearsome indeed if he wished it. And my cousin... well. She is grown great, and it would not surprise me that others find her... intimidating.

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